Noises....

Well, I really don't like this cold weather we are having!  Oh yes, I ran through the snow and I played in it a bit.. , but WoW.. it's hard on my poor feet!!  The snow all balls up between my toes!  It quickly makes these little ice balls.. and my feet.. well they are so much better cause Jaquie puts Bag Balm on them all the time.. but that stuff is hard on them!  So I get done what I have to do real quick and I don't beg to stay out like I'd like to do!

We had 2 days of snow on the weekend.. then this huge thing came in.. Jaquie said he was just clearing the snow away so we could walk out there.. but I didn't believe her.. I wondered what that thing was really doing out there.. and I ran around to each and every window warning it to stay back!  Jaquie held me to reassure me and we ended up going upstairs where he was out of sight!  Truth is.. those sounds remind me of some things back at the Mill.. I can't stop the Flashbacks!  I don't mean to get upset but some of these sounds just make me feel all weird and I try to act fierce but really I'm just a bit scared.

You have to remember it's less than 3 months since those nice people saved me!!!!  My life is so much better now!  Well way better!  I LOVE my new life.. but stuff happens... oh there is this cupboard that makes this squeaking noise in our kitchen.. everytime I hear it.. it reminds me of how my cage door squeaked when they came to get me out.  I was afraid when they came to get me!  So when I hear that door.. I panic!

I'm SO lucky that Jaquie and Bill love me so much and are so understanding when I freak out about Stuff!  And.. don't get me wrong.. I'm not doing it ALL the time.. but when it happens.. it's like something inside me.. well it's hard to describe.. but all I can say is.. it makes me afraid and Jaquie's voice and the way she holds me calms me down.. then everything is okay again!

Will it stop?
Logan